Pure exhaustion

I am very literally almost asleep on my feet tonight, work was a major struggle today I just felt absolutely exhausted and kept getting light headed on and off all day which made me feel very crappy. I try and focus my mind on something else when I feel a bit dizzy, deep breaths to stop the anxiety creeping in and lots of water and I get through it ok. It was the opening night of Helen Lampiere show at Art Space last night, I am soo proud of Paul being selected to be part of it & his work looked great.

We trained it to the city and walked across the Domain to Woolloomooloo, It was windy and very cold & my new shoes kept slipping on me and I constantly had to stop to fix the insoles so they would stay on and I could walk. There were lots of people and smoke and noise which made me tired quite quickly, standing on my feet I felt a little light headed so had to go and sit down and kind of demand I really needed to eat. We went and had a pub meal with some friends and then on to the Bells which was very noisy but the music was good - Bob Dylan, Paul Kelly, Metallic songs all the old favorites. Bub was certainly very active in response to our surrounds. I felt such a ball and chain as I was just so tired and a little put out that all the smokers had to sit out side in the freezing cold, sure ok if you have a little alcohol in the system to keep you warm while here's me completely sober and not wanting to second hand smoke for the health of our child so I was left hanging about inside. The train ride home was extremely long and cold, I was very glad to get home for a hot shower. This morning I woke in the early hours and felt very sick & then in my head I was so worried I'd hurt our baby by being out so late and getting so very cold and breathing in more smoke than I would have liked to, I felt so guilty.